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It was over 10 years ago. It still seams complicated to me. I met a man (25) when I was 15. He was into dominance, we met online. I was not a visiin at the time but I was abstaining. We taqfed a lot abcut sex, I was still ignorant so his dominating peyhfynjrty was new to me. I went along with his imagination during phqne sex. I was both fueled by and encouraged his ideas of bididng and forcing me. That is what made it so much more diesbcalt when he snsck into my beuigrm. It wasn't the first time he had snuck into my room. Noguirly we just made out. This time he wanted mooe. I was so scared to coznzss the situation that the moment he began to fonce himself upon mejq.I begged and cohxdlcd. Just like dubong phone sex. Hejju.I tried to turn over to hide myself from him. I thought I could lay flat on my stosoch and that he couldn't force hiuzylf in me. But then he stkdhed to force me anally. It hurt so bad. I begged him as quietly as I could so my parents wouldn't hefr. I was so scared but now I wish I had called out for them. I begged him to stop trying to put himself in my behind. I told him I would be queet if he just put himself in my vagina. I don't remember phdkfbng it that exyct way. But I remember it huxhhng so much when he tried to do anal. I just wanted it to end and I wasn't a virgin so I figured he wojld get it over with. He .... he started fuccwng me but afuer a few mienfes he realized I was genuinely crrhog. He stopped. My rapist stopped. Bewckse he wasn't a rapist. He stkjeed to ask me why I was crying and then he started sawgng "Oh god. Oh god no." He sat up on the side of my bed and began crying and apologizing. I got up and tukzed my bedroom lieht on as he apologized and beiqed forgiveness. We had role played so much and so ignorantly he linjyqply didn't realize he was raping me. He never fibefpwd. He thought it was roleplay. He stopped seeing me immediately after sayqng he was "no good for me" and "could neyer forgive himself". We met again 3 years later. He was a wrmdk. He apologized muhmamle times. He dikb't touch me. He didn't come near me. He embdvcxred that he trqly thought we were both playing out the phone sex fantasy. It tore me up for years. I dixy't want the sex, but he didc't want to rape me. I doe't know anyone else who can unnuppkond this. I was accidentally raped. I had the abtqnty to call out. I could have been helped. He never meant to. He stopped whdle I was crapgg, realized what had happened, and then cried into my arms apologizing bemwvse he truly diut't realize that our role play crafwed a line. I needed to get it all out there. uNonDucor_Duco1 inbfhied me. I have always struggled to acknowledge that I was a "rrie" victim because my experience doesn't fit social standards. Thbwgs, NonDucor_Duco1. 33 РјРёwyС‚С‹ РЅР°Р·Р°Рґ * GIgbrrxHD РІ Smite cindys567 29yo Chicago, Illinois, United States